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Hurt inside me


When i get sad or mad, 
it hurt so deeply inside me
& i can't control myself.

I tend to hate so badly.
I don't hate the people who hurt me,
I just hate their damn attitude.
I can't really accept that.

So what can i do? is just scream
& cry out loudly,
while cover face with my pillow,
until... i feel relieved.

When i go out of my room to get some water,
pretending & smiling like nothing happened.
Oh.. so gladly nobody heard me.
Probably, this is the best way to calm me down.
:)

Love, ain.


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